Turning Towards Gratitude
As I approached writing the blog post for this November, I got curious about what I was thinking and feeling 4 years ago at this time. I wasn’t hugely surprised to find out that much is the same, and I’ve noticed one HUGE difference I want to highlight.
Today I am GRATEFUL
Soon, we will learn the results of our national election, as well as, many other elections occurring throughout this country. I am grateful for the right to vote. I am grateful for every individual who spoke up, marched in the streets, held signs, took cases to court and won legislation that secured that right.
When I turn my attention away from the uncertainty of the outcome of this election and towards my feelings of gratitude, I feel more calm, more hope and less fear. I see more possibility. I recognize that within my feelings of fear, discomfort, anger is valuable information. I also know I can only hear that information, if I have first calmed or comforted those feelings. Practicing gratitude is a wonderful calming tool. It is also a tool that turns our attention towards what we want rather than what we want to get away from. This allows us to open our hearts and minds to ourselves and to each other.
I welcome you to join me in a 30 day gratitude practice for the month of November. Each day, I am committed to writing something I am grateful for on a leaf that will then be placed on my gratitude tree. This photo is the tree we created last year. Credit given to Big Life Journal.
Post from November 2016
What are we going to do?
Everywhere I turn today I see people experiencing fear. I see it in their eyes as they cautiously make eye contact with me. I read it in their Facebook posts as they express worry about the future safety for women, immigrants, people of color, people of the lgbtq community. I hear it in the rants and expressions of disbelief spoken on the streets, “What are we going to do? What is going to happen?” I feel it in my own belly.
I’m so Afraid
Fear is a powerful emotion and one that we all come into this world experiencing out of necessity. This primal emotion tells us ‘something’s not right here! Or be on the look out for danger!’ The intention of this valuable emotion and its activation of our sympathetic nervous system, is to motivate us to cry out for help or to mobilize ourselves to protect ourselves from a threat. When we are young, we need others to keep us safe. “Human beings are born with a biological imperative to connect with people close to them-caregivers initially- for safety and protection, for comfort and soothing and for regulating our nervous systems and emotions.” (Graham) As we age, we learn, how to keep our selves safe and learn how to differentiate real from perceived danger, as we internalize the positive and caring messages and actions from our caregivers and our environment. We can also learn (neurons that fire together wire together) to not feel safe when our environment doesn’t supportively or comfortingly respond to our cries for help.
We can find our way beyond FEAR
Whether we are feeling fearful today or have felt fearful for many days or years before, we can find our way beyond the fear so we don’t get stuck in fear unable to move. First we must calm our fear. We need to find our footing in today. We need to gently step away from our scary narratives of the future and look around and find the friendly and allied faces. We must reach out to those we feel comforted by and with. “This is what our brains are wired for: reaching out to and interacting with others…Increasing the social connections in our lives is probably the single easiest way to enhance our well-being.” (Lieberman) Once our fear is calmed, we can then choose, with both head and heart, mind and body engaged, what actions to take to continue to seek safety or create change in places or systems that don’t feel safe.
The path beyond fear often includes the experience of grief and disappointment for what we didn’t get or didn’t have. “We can’t heal if we can’t grieve…We run from grief because loss scares us, yet our hearts reach towards grief because the broken parts want to mend.” (Brown, 139). The path beyond fear, often includes the experience of vulnerability. “Vulnerability is not winning or losing; it’s having the courage to show up and be seen when we have no control over the outcome. Vulnerability is not weakness; it’s our greatest measure of courage.” (Brown, 4)
Vulnerability is the path
Today I feel vulnerable. Today I am committed to not shying away from that vulnerability and not hiding it from my family, my clients or myself. Today I am committed to speaking out and for others when I see danger while working tirelessly to create safety in as many ways as possible. Today I feel committed to doing my best to find the eyes and hands of others feeling vulnerable and build the connections to help us all step out of the place of fear.